Well…this is not one of those stories.

This is simply a list of women who could get it. Yes, it…that. Me. Mine.

Since I am completely comfortable with my sexuality and who I am, I have no qualms in saying I find the following ladies beautiful and that one or two of them make me feel some kind of way.

#1 Stacey Dash – She is the first ever to make my list and this was only because of her Playboy photo spread a few years back. What started out as pure admiration for a 40 year old woman who still looked hot without plastic surgery turned into a full blown crush. Yeah, I know the pictures are photoshopped to hell and back but damn! Just…DAMN! Now…if only she would just keep her mouth closed so as not to sound as dumb as a bag of rocks…I’m good.

#2 Kerry Washington – I have got to come clean on this one. She made my list after a conversation with a male friend, whom I want to violate me in the most obscene ways, said she was on his list. Anything that could get me closer to making that a reality is tops to me. She does have some nice lips though. Please white jeezus don’t let her be one of those sloppy wet lips all over your face kissers. ::shudders…blech::

#3 Leela James – WOW!!! She just made the list yesterday when I clicked the link on NPR to read this article. GORGEOUS. Simply…GORGEOUS. RAWWWRRR ::pawing motion::

#4 Reagan Gomez-Preston – Yeah!! Her!! That little girl from Parenthood has blossomed into a beautiful sexy piece of chocolate. ::swoons::

#5 The Randomness – The #5 slot is ties between two unknown random girls and probably will change on a whim. One is a model on the United Colors of Benneton website and the other is Jay Z’s rumored jump-off. (click the pictures to enlarge)

I think the former is a classic beauty with very intense eyes. The latter…well, let’s be honest here – she is not all that attractive to me but has a banging body. Check out the curve of her hip and follow it down to the curve of her calf. Girrrrl is werkin that dress…

::fans face as I check my strictly-dickly-down-with-dack-hetero card….::

Recently, the veil has been lifted from my eyes only to see someone I thought to be a good friend as just that – a user.

I opened my home to her for about nine months when she left her husband. Due to her employment situation, her contribution towards rent, utilities, and food was sporadic at best. The burden of housing and feeding another adult took its toll on my emotions and wallet so she had to go. She moved in with another friend, where she resides today, a year or so later, and her job situation has not improved.

I will not go into detail but I have noticed a pattern of behavior with this woman and must  now put some distance between us. I can’t say that I wasn’t warned by a more than a few people who saw it long before I did. I wanted to give her the benefit of doubt. I didn’t want to believe that to be true about her…but it is.

To say I am disappointed is an understatement. But I’m a big girl so I can handle it no matter how hard.

In the words of the late Teddy Pendergrass…

“I think we need to let it gooooo…..”

I am not new to blogging. In fact, this is my third blog. While the first on was decommissioned several years ago, the second one is alive and well. I decided to create Me, Anonymously in order to free myself from censorship. The censoring was self-inflicted because I had done such a great job of guiding friends and family to the site that I felt compelled to withhold many of my thoughts and feelings. I feared hurting feelings and being judged.

From time to time, I may publish previous posts from my other site.  But I consider this to be a fresh start, a clean slate if you will.

A new beginning.